Shot To Hell

Well i just got pushed under a bus.... Life sucks

sometimes, especially when you are feeling some

thing strong for someone and they just jump, pee,

crap, stab, rip, step on it. Its like i was just a

phase, like a toy to a child... What i mean is i was

a pair of dirty underwear that was thrown away

after one use, or i could be like a one night stand,

man that really sucks.

Well my next few weeks are blown to hell now.

So i'm gunna try and keep my mind positive if i

can.

P.S.

This post is about Crystal.

The Big pickle

One of the most biggest pickles i have ever
been in, the one that decides my future. Will
the life of torment ever end.

About two and a half years ago i started a
relationship with a sister in my congregation,
we fell in love. So happened, what i dreaded
the most happened, an elder that was rogue
made her go to the elder body and tell lies
which in turn broke us up.

Two months later she came to me and
apologized and explained why she did what
she did, we came to an understanding and
decided to go on hold and date again when
the time was right.

A year and a half has past sense that conve-
rsation, problems have come up and come
down, but the worst to happen was the fact
that she had started dating someone else,
which i just found out recently was lie created
to make me leave her, which i did and started
a new relationship only to find out that my
former girlfriend wants to get back with me
still.

What do i do.